October seems like a busy month. I was not around Singapore most of the time. To date, I only manage to update one blog. But I can tell you that this is a challenging one. I've been thinking of how to write in order to convey my messages which at the same time not too lengthy. A lot of people also suggested me to add this add that... Phew!!! Tough! I decided to go with the flow and just write whatever I feel like it. Weeks ago, a godly man told me that a woman who loves Jesus more than loving him is the one for him. A lot of question marks bombarded my mind when I read that and it took me a while to digest what he said. I asked some people - men and women, believers and non believers, old Christians and new Christians. Different people happen to give me different point of view. Some say that's a pretty selfish statement. Some say they are not sure; it's a tough question. Some say yeah they love Jesus more than their current bfs or gfs while quoting me a few bible verses. And you know what, most people think that is quite impossible.
Initially I was still very confused. I started to doubt myself, I felt guilty as if I have sinned big time. I was thinking if one day Jesus ask me to let go of my family or the ones I love for Him... I will not! Like how Abraham was willing to sacrifice his son Isaac when God asked him to... I will not! Yet when I was attending church service on Sunday, I just teared uncontrollably... I was sad... I was truly troubled by what my friend said. I asked myself and I asked Jesus, have I not loved You enough? Have I not being faithful enough? Am I right? Or wrong? Everyone answers differently. Who is right? And who is wrong? I can't help it but to seek the answer. As men have different interpretations over certain things, I could only pray to Him... to enlighten me, to give me wisdom because eventhough information given by humans are worth to be learnt, they are knowledge worth to be gathered but true wisdom comes from God. AMEN.
Slowly, I realised it is actually something very simple. The love for Jesus is totally different from the love for my family. It is not comparable, not measurable. It is just...well, different! In the first place, when I came into this world from my mother's womb, it is already a gift from God. My parents raised me up and showered me with love and that is why God asks us to honour our father and mother which I definitely will even without Him asking. But God still reminds us all the time through His words because He does not only love me but He loves my parents as well. He loves everyone and His love is unconditional. Then I put it the other way round while I reflect the day when my earthly father passed away, can I stopped him from dying? Can I say NO to God? Can I blame God for bringing him away? No. Life goes on even after he is dead. In fact when I kept dwelling in the past made me feel sorrowful all the time. But it is only through God that makes me realised that there is something better awaiting me and feel joyful once again. I also thought that ain't my loved ones longing for this heavenly life at eternity as well? And I realised when I love Him above all else, I am loving my family and everything else more too! (Believe me because I am really experiencing this feeling.) Hallelujah!
Initially I was still very confused. I started to doubt myself, I felt guilty as if I have sinned big time. I was thinking if one day Jesus ask me to let go of my family or the ones I love for Him... I will not! Like how Abraham was willing to sacrifice his son Isaac when God asked him to... I will not! Yet when I was attending church service on Sunday, I just teared uncontrollably... I was sad... I was truly troubled by what my friend said. I asked myself and I asked Jesus, have I not loved You enough? Have I not being faithful enough? Am I right? Or wrong? Everyone answers differently. Who is right? And who is wrong? I can't help it but to seek the answer. As men have different interpretations over certain things, I could only pray to Him... to enlighten me, to give me wisdom because eventhough information given by humans are worth to be learnt, they are knowledge worth to be gathered but true wisdom comes from God. AMEN.
Slowly, I realised it is actually something very simple. The love for Jesus is totally different from the love for my family. It is not comparable, not measurable. It is just...well, different! In the first place, when I came into this world from my mother's womb, it is already a gift from God. My parents raised me up and showered me with love and that is why God asks us to honour our father and mother which I definitely will even without Him asking. But God still reminds us all the time through His words because He does not only love me but He loves my parents as well. He loves everyone and His love is unconditional. Then I put it the other way round while I reflect the day when my earthly father passed away, can I stopped him from dying? Can I say NO to God? Can I blame God for bringing him away? No. Life goes on even after he is dead. In fact when I kept dwelling in the past made me feel sorrowful all the time. But it is only through God that makes me realised that there is something better awaiting me and feel joyful once again. I also thought that ain't my loved ones longing for this heavenly life at eternity as well? And I realised when I love Him above all else, I am loving my family and everything else more too! (Believe me because I am really experiencing this feeling.) Hallelujah!
As days passed while I continue seeking Him, I gained more and more revelations. When two persons are in love, they tend to act irrationally and emotionally which is unhealthy for the relationship. Yes even they are so in love but still end up breaking off due to arguments, jealousy, selfishness; the list goes on and on. I also reflect myself in my past relationships. Why did it not work out? And my current situation, how do I make it work out? If we put our focus in God, seeking Him above all else, we will know how to react wisely and it is only through that for a relationship to sustain. True love is still insufficient to have a lasting relationship. It comes with faith, patience, peace, grace, perseverance and wisdom to bind two persons together even they are far apart from each other. In fact, it is very important for a couple or husband and wife to walk hand in hand for Christ. When we serve Him wholeheartedly He will definitely let our relationship grow stronger and stronger and the love towards each other will also increase. Matthew 6:33 says Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously and He will give you everything you need. AMEN.
Just as I have so many doubts in my mind, God just kept pouring me with new insights. I just love Him more and more. I am sure He wants me to know the true message behind the statement. He is the only one who can pour upon me His unlimited healing power be it for my skin or my spine. It is the first time I ever felt such a speedy recovery for my spine injury. (Well I injured my spine for the 3rd time for those who don't know). On top of that, when I visited Christchurch not long after that, I was awed... it is truly amazing to see such wonderful landscapes and livings there. Mountains, snow, sea, dolphins, sheeps, etc. How creative our God is to put together all these wonderful things at different parts of the earth which at the same time are able to nurture more and more love from me to the world. So ask me again... how can I not love Jesus more than anything else? He is just so awesome! AMEN.
