It took me quite some time to finally get my blog done. I have been wanting to write for a while but just didn't have the right mood. Talking about the title of my blog as well as this post it is just so real that life is all about seeking your ownselves. At least to me, it is all about seeking my true self; my identity, my dreams, my purpose. All these while, I had been brainstorming why exactly am I living in this world. Isn't this a cruel world? Life is just a cycle. You are borned, you grow up and go to school, then you work hard your entire life to make a living and some to become rich, you get married and raise your child and your child would go through the same routine as you do. Then you get old, fall ill and die. Worse thing is you go to hell and reincarnate to the next life. This process goes on and on and it's never ending. So why do I want to live in the first place? Why would I get married? Why do I wanna give birth to a child? Wow! Sounds a little deep huh? And never expect I would have such thought? I bet even my very close friends do not expect these from me.
Until I come to a stage where I was suffering from a huge dilemma. I could no longer depend on anyone or anything. I just feel empty. I decided to look for a breakthrough and my life starts to change. Well, I mean my mindset and values start to change slowly and they get more and more significant. I got to know plenty of people that have made an impact in my life. I talk, I share, I listen, I read, I think, I pray... to understand the logic of life; the reason and meaning behind everything. And then the greatest breakthrough fall upon me; when I finally repented and seek God. I know a lot of people would comment "Here comes Phoebe talking about God, God and God again" but it is just because they simply don't understand. I know how they feel because I've been through the same stage as they have. For more than 10 years God has been trying to save me. Yet I was skeptical and now I only wish I could have known Him earlier. Because that would make a big difference in my life and within my family...
Honestly, I don't really mean to start this blog simply because I want to boast about God. But it's because I want to share about my life which in turn could touch people's lives and reach out (that's the main objective of my site). Well, it is the real life experiences I'm talking about here. And if you notice my life is actually so strongly related to God. So He just naturally comes in my way in my daily sharing. He has given me a purpose in my life! And that is the greatest gift that I would have ever receive. It is no longer about being rich or climbing the corporate ladder in order to become successful. It is to achieve the dream of mankind; to be with God at eternity. Until today, I am still learning, still growing and in search deeper and deeper of Him and through Him I can find the real me and my true calling. One person told me before "The journey is very tough but it is by faith that we sustain." Amen.
Until I come to a stage where I was suffering from a huge dilemma. I could no longer depend on anyone or anything. I just feel empty. I decided to look for a breakthrough and my life starts to change. Well, I mean my mindset and values start to change slowly and they get more and more significant. I got to know plenty of people that have made an impact in my life. I talk, I share, I listen, I read, I think, I pray... to understand the logic of life; the reason and meaning behind everything. And then the greatest breakthrough fall upon me; when I finally repented and seek God. I know a lot of people would comment "Here comes Phoebe talking about God, God and God again" but it is just because they simply don't understand. I know how they feel because I've been through the same stage as they have. For more than 10 years God has been trying to save me. Yet I was skeptical and now I only wish I could have known Him earlier. Because that would make a big difference in my life and within my family...
Honestly, I don't really mean to start this blog simply because I want to boast about God. But it's because I want to share about my life which in turn could touch people's lives and reach out (that's the main objective of my site). Well, it is the real life experiences I'm talking about here. And if you notice my life is actually so strongly related to God. So He just naturally comes in my way in my daily sharing. He has given me a purpose in my life! And that is the greatest gift that I would have ever receive. It is no longer about being rich or climbing the corporate ladder in order to become successful. It is to achieve the dream of mankind; to be with God at eternity. Until today, I am still learning, still growing and in search deeper and deeper of Him and through Him I can find the real me and my true calling. One person told me before "The journey is very tough but it is by faith that we sustain." Amen.
u will find ur way...life is just like a piece of plain paper..it's how u paint and colour it with love,care and joy..^_^
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